I joined the servers a long time ago. Somewhere along the lines April of 2014, I joined Vanilla for the first time and I loved it. Ever since then, I've been a regular and I frequent the servers. Don't get me wrong, I'm not here to tell a story. In fact, I'm here for something completely different. I'm here to ask for your forgiveness. I've done a lot of things here that I'm not proud of. Some were mistakes, others were in the moment, and sometimes they were both. What I'm trying to say, is that I have made a lot of them. I've loopholed, lied, and cheated my way out of things before. Not recently, but not that far in the past. I'm still facing the repercussions of them, and I will continue to be faced with them for a while. I've come to terms with it, and I'm sorry for that. This is not some half assed, "Oh I'm sorry just forgive me so we can move on" kind of sorry. This is genuine and real. Unfortunately, saying sorry doesn't mend things. People look at me certain ways and will continue to do so for the duration of my days here. Regardless of how things go, I've learned a lot. The things I've been taught, and the lessons I've learned will stick with me for years to come. The people I've met and the things that I've seen have impacted me in so many ways. Mostly positive things, but sometimes not so much. The friends I've made, the people I've met, and the things that they taught me will eventually become nill, and that scares me. This is shown in so many circumstances. The people I mentioned before know who they are. For those that know I'm speaking about them, know this: I am so, incredibly sorry. Everything I put you through, was wrong. I was a complete dick, and I'm so sorry for throwing our relationships down the drain. I regret what I've done, and sadly I fear that I'll never be able to get our friendship back. Both past staff members, and current have seen what I've done. I've made quite the mess for the staff here. Intentionally or unintentionally, I have done things that I can't undo. My reputation is forever stained, and it's unfortunate that it's this way. I'm sorry that I've been a pain in the ass. I know I have been, and I am going to change that. I want you to know that I am sorry for the things I've done. You guys keep the peace here. I should be making your lives easier, not complicating your jobs even more. I hope you can find a place in your heart to forgive me for the things I've done. I am genuinely sorry for everything I have caused and done. I've hurt a lot of people, and shattered most of my friendships I've made here. For the people I've affected, I am so sorry, and I apologize for any trouble I caused. My friends past and present, my enemies, the staff team, and everyone else I have affected during my time here: I want you to know something. Things are going to change, and they already have begun to. My personality, my demeanor, and my intentions have changed considerably. I'm no longer the troll, the jerk, or the rule breaker that I was. Please allow me to have another chance, something to make it up to you with. Saying sorry as much as I have won't change anything. Actions speak louder than words, and I intend to change. Not for my benifit... No, I'm past that. It's time that I start changing for the benifit of the community. This is the first step. I genuinely, sincerely apologize. Will you forgive me for all that I've done? I know I don't deserve forgiveness. I really don't. Ive done things that shouldn't be forgiven. I just hope that someone, somewhere here can find it in their heart to do so. Things will start changing around here. I promise that. See you around.
You're already off my WOS so that's as much forgiveness as I'll give. You're just another commoner to me. HF
I don't remember having negative experiences with you during my last period as a staff member, and haven't had any of those kinds of experiences with you since I've came back. People change all the time, and we learn from our mistakes. So I'm glad you're taking the opportunity to acknowledge anything bad you've done and apologized for it. Hope to see you on the server sometime, cause you seem like a good guy. Just keep going on the right track
First off I forgive you, I haven't really talked to you but I forgive. And this is more than a game server to people, it's a community where they can go to, when they are having a rough day, so it sometimes sucks when people aren't to fond of them.
My son, it is all ok. We are still here, salt happens, but it always goes away. Sorry for the salt I have sprinkled on you before, still considered a pal even though we aren't friends on Steam lol. Add me some time, lenny face.
No, this isn't. This is a game server on the internet of all places. This is just emotional feel-good circle jerking.
Please stop posting on this thread for the sake of arguing. It's much more than just a server to me. It's somewhere I can turn to for advice. A place that I can be myself. A place I won't be judged. A place that took me in when I needed it the most. A place where I've made friends that I genuinely care for. A place that I'll never forget about. I care about this community like I do my friends. If you cannot wrap your head around that, you have no business posting here.
Some heads are too big to wrap anything around. He needs to start talking about what's on his kind instead of taking it out of the server pals.
I wish I would've gotten to know you, tbh you seem like a cool guy, takes guts to post something like this, and this feels really heartfelt. So hopefully others can see this too!
i don't know if i've known you before, but time has a way of twisting people, one way or another, we all change and mature eventually, or even the opposite way, i'm sure we will forgive you for whatever you did in the past, because what happened in the past doesn't really matter anymore, it's what you do in the present and the future that's different from the past that matters, i've had shit here and in real life too in the past, but now i've learned that it's best to live with it and try to change yourself for the better, it's good that you've realised your mistakes and already making an effort to change your ways
I had my shared in the past way before this community. A person cannot move on if they don't acknowledge their problems and work with it. We evolved to overcome these problems. Mistakes always will happen time to time. It is unavoidable for mistakes. Good for you but please, don't a huge leap but a small step. We are alive and happy because we are social creatures. We are there for one and another. Seek help, we as a community will help you no matter what!
